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Broken In Half
03:19
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Everybody loves me when I'm broken in half
I'm screaming from the agony, they all point and laugh
They all point and laugh
They all point and laugh like...
Static on the speakers
Translation: Too much silence
I think I've hit my peak
I've grown accustomed to the violence
I always feel weak when I compare myself to tyrants, but I feel like I am eye to eye with I and I's own iris
Tired of the same ole same
The games we play are prepubescent
Flirting with mortality, we're glowing iridescent
Here rests NKNGS
He did his best, but wasn't shit
He stressed himself to death
I hope he finally found bliss (Yeah right...)
Everybody loves me when I'm broken in half
I'm screaming from the agony, they all point and laugh
They all point and laugh
They all point and laugh like...
Every morning back breaks from getting out of bed
Fell into a pit of snakes
Bought every word they said
Don't think I have what it takes to conquer existential dread
But even if I did, I made this bed
So I'ma lie in it
Wine and dine my demons 'fore I take them out to pasture
Most of those who claim they're loyal, actually some actors
Many people hesitant to bite into that apple, because knowledge equals suffering
I'll lead them by example
Everybody loves me when I'm broken in half
I'm screaming from the agony, they all point and laugh
They all point and laugh
They all point and laugh like...
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Message In A Bottle
01:42
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I've said before
That I hate my life
One foot out the door
One hand on the knife
I've washed ashore
Like a bottle of wine
That's been emptied and quarked
With a message inside
As I lay me down to sleep
I pray your soul my soul to keep
I keep a key around my neck
I never meant to lack respect
I seek forgiveness for my faults
I'm not concerned with finding peace
I take it with a grain of salt
I'm not upset, I'm just obscene
But we keep playing these same songs from when we were teens
And singing the words wrong
Back when we were free and nothing could hurt us
Now I look at my old friends and see them struggle to keep calm
We've gone from rebels to the cogs we used to laugh about
Used to party in a vacant house while Chris' mom was out of town
Laying on the driveway, tripping
Looking at the stars
It almost took away from all the pain from cuts that turned to scars
I've said before
That I hate my life
One foot out the door
One hand on the knife
I've washed ashore
Like a bottle of wine
That's been emptied and quarked
With a message inside
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Evergreen
02:18
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Broken mirror
That's seven years of bad luck
I must have broke a dozen or this punishment don't add up
Try to find a reason
Turns out I'm just a sad fuck
Try to steer clear of where my failures let the crowd judge
Now what?
Tower over everyone I've ever known
Just so I can keep my head down
I stay as still as stone
I'm not alone
But some days it might feel that way
And if I need to cope, I don't need you to tell me how to pray
Just get out of my way
Everybody's suffering
Everything is different than it was when we were seventeen
Douse myself in gasoline
Strike a match and cause a scene
Swallow my Fluoxetine
Chase it down with kerosene
I'm evergreen
Forever blue
I'm stuck between
The darkest hues
Give me that cold blood
So I don't have to pick my battles
Give my that bold front
So I don't have to feel so rattled
Give me that old gun
And anything they send I'll handle
I zip my coat up and watch my life slowly unravel
So mirror, mirror shattered on the floor
It's such a chore
Just to wake up from the dreamland that I live in anymore
Kick the door in
Find me hiding under bed like scared child
Forget what it is to feel happy, hopeful and beguiled
Into the wild
I've wandered in a hazy state
Walk into a rose bush
Beauty is the biggest pain
I feel the ache
Nothing will ever be the same
I'm not okay
But everything is fucking great
I'm evergreen
Forever blue
I'm stuck between
The darkest hues
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I don't want to feel anything, anymore
Laying on my back
Bleeding out on the bathroom floor
I don't want to feel anything, anymore
No flora
No Fawnna
No fading this song out
No favor to a god could bring your presence back upon us
If Nirvana exists, then I hope that you have found it
If not, I hope that nothingness is better than your life was
Hung up on the typos
Hanging like some type of tapestry of life goals
One eye like a cyclops
Empty words when I talk
Emotions in I sulk
Never watch where I walk
Darkness to which I flock
Stuck on the expression, not intent
If life's a lesson
I can see the reason you abandoned shipwreck
Trust me when I lesson life to nothing but a question with no answer
I could give a shit less
I don't want to feel anything, anymore
Laying on my back
Bleeding out on the bathroom floor
I don't want to feel anything, anymore
Never mind the distance
If you would have called, I would have been there in an instant
If you needed anything, you know I would have gifted
But nothing that I could have done would change your ill persistence
You had a goal and you pursued it
The truth is I envy your courage to follow through
If you didn't have a child your choices would be for you
But you abandoned hope, so what do you expect them to do?
And nothing's been the same since
Aimless, I wander through the days graceless
Made to face this
No basis, I'm wasting away
I hate to say I think about you every single day, but...
I don't want to feel anything, anymore
Laying on my back
Bleeding out on the bathroom floor
I don't want to feel anything, anymore
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Tears for Fears
Apparently all my peers and I...
Everybody wants to rule the world but can't decide
If the trade off is worth it
Ear to ear I smiled
Past tense
Back then I was a cheerful guy
Fulfillment in the form of party afternoons
Had ice cream cake
Assortment of balloons
Mother sent .JPEG's worn from the disposable she would shoot
Photo with her phone
Look at you
So cute
So happy back when
Used to wake up laughing, till you went back to bed
Then she said, "Well, when came all the gloom?"
Told her that life hadn't beaten me down yet
Stuck the tool in my mouth
Knocked my tooth out
Oof, ouch
'Fore I was a booze hound
Every six months used to move round
Who's house?
No clue now
Mind blown like a nuke, now
When did life become some futile?
All my memories are photographs of better days
I tried to push you away
But you still love me anyway
Forgive and forget
Art born from death
I swore that I would never step foot in these parts again
Can't sleep
Head is full of regrets
Can't speak unless I scream from my chest
Cast me into the sea like a net
I got a lot of bad habits that I need to address and accept
Except, I wasn't always like this
But time spent thinking is time spent lifeless
And I've spent years in my head
Fought tears back instead of the fear that I felt being used to progress
If it seems like I'm distant
It's because I am
If I hold my breathe long enough
There won't be none left
Obsessed with the upset
Watch as the sky burns red from the sunset
Unsteady chemistry
Words turn to weaponry
Leave them in memory of everything that ever meant anything to me
Peace to the sky
Take my last breathe and then I dive
Leave no reason why
All my memories are photographs of better days
I tried to push you away
But you still love me anyway
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